Post "contemplations"

Hm.... this is going to be a long one.
Firstly, I need to announce: I am planning on pursuing honors in psychology! That is it! Decided! A done deal - no more doubts! I met my HOD along with Sid and he told us about the six papers and two electives- we have consumer psychology, media and psychology, sports psychology, abnormal psychology (duh!), forensic psychology(drool), industrial psychology, social psychology and yup, a RESEARCH PAPER( totally rad!). Now I am all excited and looking forward to it! And the cherry on the cake?? OUR CLASSES ARE IN THE NEW BLOCK! :P ha ha Alors, ici est ma grande plan : I do honors in psychology, MS in clinical (from Christ University), work with Tani (approx 2 yrs), write GRE and TOEFL and Voilà - get into Harvard. Okay, laugh all you want, and if it helps-you can imagine am sloshed :O IMAGINE!

I am really tired today- long, lazy day I've had. Y-aw-n. I also met my friend's crush or as she claims "love"(no mockery intended). I kind of told her that he sucks and after that, I can just hope that she is not hurt... I mean, all this time, all that I have ever done is lie- in one way or another- to my friends. I always try NOT to comment negatively - hey! i don't want to hurt 'em or worse, confront them. I have always tried to be "optimistic" or so I would like to believe. But today, I wanted to change that. So what if I hurt her, at least I will tell the truth - I could never picture them together. And when she asked me why i felt so, i could not explain. I can never explain! I just KNEW it, the same way I knew 'he' and I were not meant for a-'forever'. So, I did not see the point in lying to her, even if it was going to keep her happy temporarily. I can be "optimistic" and be her best buddy by doing it, but I will not stoop that low! I don't want her to build fantasies that someday, somewhere, in some cosmically perfect moment, they will become man and wife ( or to make it less dramatic- a couple). Nobody is polite to me when they say things for my betterment. And I honestly believed that I was helping her...
Why do I think so much?!

It is quite surprising that I have not written a word about the bitch or her slut of a mother. I know that is a vile thing to say but believe me, you would have said worse! Its just that, I don't know how anyone can be so manipulative, in this case, both the mother and her daughter. My whole class hates her (well, almost) and all I wanted to do was to help her. She made a fool out of me!! Crazy woman!
Sigh!
(call for dinner)


Oh fuck! Rambo started barking! OW! My ears!

'night!

Ash




P.S. Ahem, I remember the day you offered to buy me a gift (to repay for my kindness or maybe, to keep your balls in place)... OK two more months for my Birthday-if you remember, and I was hoping (also, looking-forward-to) ah, receiving one from you (now that you have a job and the money isn't your father's)! :P

In case you have, um, similar intentions, I just wanted to give you a little hint- I hate chocolates, clothes(what were you thinking?! I am not under privileged!), no "dinner together"please! To cut a long story short, I would just love a book! No, please, not MILLS and BOONS- I've heard porn is better!! ;)