I love watching chick flicks and reading chick lit. Okay! Not ALL the time! It makes me feel like there's so much more to me. Oh boy! Last post was about "MY" future, today I'm speaking about the "me". Narcissistic! Or is a blog essentially about the "I". AShwini, please accept things and DON'T be in denial! u are NARCISSISTIC! Hmph!

"Anybody there??"

I was, as usual, wondering about higher education. MY higher education to be precise. Last weekend I finished my first round of interviews for the Rhodes Scholarship. Wow! THAT was something... First, I had to build myself up- through my Statement of purpose, Resume,reference letters, etc. I applied for the M.St. in English and American Studies. Sigh~ But in the interview,I think they tore me. Tore me good. Oh but I mean that in a good way. I saw my faults- there's no denial.I saw HOW much MORE there is to knowledge, how I've conveniently left somethings out. Though I study Literature, I have never consulted visual or auditory text!! As an academician or as a student, I don't have the privilege of restricting myself! And for the first time, I was nervous during the interview- heart pounding, tongue tied et al. Yup! It happened! I walked out the door, feeling completely stupid! But on the brighter side, the whole experience showed me how lucky I am! SO many people love and respect me. They expect so much more from me and were so happy and proud of me! And no, it did not pressurize me, it made me work harder and be humble. I am so thankful to my family,friends and mentors.
For heavens sake I CAN'T be calm about this!!! Across the table were scholars judging ME! I was being considered for studying in OXFORD UNIVERSITY!! Oh lord!! I AM so proud of myself. I hope it will be an upward growth from here on. In a week I will find out whether am through to the next round or not. Fingers crossed!
And dear readers, please pray I do! It means the world!
Love,

ASH

P.S. I could not ignore this anymore and was wondering: While I bare my life and thoughts to this blog, is anyone at all reading? Is anybody there? Anybody home? or 'am I a hopeless romantic?!